See, in the past, when they've done our scan, we've gone through the measuring of the endometrium lining - which was just mediocre since Clomid tends to thin your lining out a little bit - and then onto the ovaries. It's a routine all infertile couples go through and figure out and grow accustomed to seeing. How many of you think you could do your own scan at this point? Well, with a little help unless you're like Gumby. Anyway, through the grainy black and white, you're able to distinguish your triple stripe, then the dark circles come into view and you can almost immediately tell what you're going to be dealing with for that cycle. It's reassuring to see those little black blobs show up because you know that something is working properly for a change. At least that is how I feel. Usually.
On Clomid, my body responded well. No hot flashes, no mood swings, nothing. I've actually felt happier while on Clomid. Odd huh? Dr. S thought so. Anyway, we've seen follies as big as 33 mm across. We've seen them as small as about 11 mm. We've never seen less than three follicles that were "mature" and once, I think we had about five that were good, mature, healthy possibilities. I've always been pleased with that (other than the scary big #33). So, there I sat (laid) yesterday, on CD11, looking at the screen, seeing my ultra thick, luscious lining (ok, so the Anastrazole did do that right) and just waiting to see if my body had liked the new medicine as much as the old medicine. She went straight to the right ovary and the black and white grainy business never changed...just more black and white graininess. She wiggled the DC around and finally, two little marbles appeared that were just tiny. She didn't even measure them they were so small. She said something about the right ovary not looking too promising and moved over to the left side. After just a second, our one follicle popped up on the screen. Nothing too dramatic, it measured about 16mm on CD11 so in another few days, who knows where it'll be. We've had two follicles in the past grow about 6-8 mm overnight so we're hoping this little follie will grow a little more, but not too much.
Rik says he feels pretty good about this little guy. He even tossed out the idea that maybe he is just such a tough and scrappy little follie that he ate the other follies and he's the last one standing. King of the hill style. I couldn't help but smile. My husband knows just what to say sometimes. Dr. S asked us to pee on a stick the next few evenings and once we come up with a positive OPK, we can either do another IUI and hope our one follicle is a good one (it only takes one) or she can give us our trigger shot and we can do the IUI then.
Here are my thoughts (as if this whole novella isn't already full of my thoughts), I don't know if we should drop the moolah on an IUI when we had such a poor showing of follicles (no offense to my one little scrapper) because technically, couldn't I do this much on my own? How much will it tip the scale in our favor? I have no problem ovulating. It's getting the two key ingredients together to make an...um.....omelet maybe? What takes two ingredients? ok, I can't think of a good food analogy here, but you get the point. Something fantastic.
Maybe I've just answered my own question though....I love blogging. The IUI would give those two key ingredients their best chance to get together and make something wonderful. Since that seems to be the problem, maybe the IUI is the answer. Especially if in the past, the endometriosis was making this process tougher and has now been eliminated. I was just feeling like we should try on our own, call this month a loss and jump back in with both feet next month. While we're dropping the money on this, I want to give us our best chance possible, ya know?
ergh...I don't know what to do. Rik said he thinks if we don't do this cycle just because of the money factor, we'd regret it later and he's probably right. It does just take one egg. And it's not like the other months (with all their glory) have been successful. I do find it ironic though that my left ovary is so active. Always the bigger producer, also the one with the cyst and now 3 weeks after surgery on it, it's our only shot. Show off.
So, what do you ladies (& Doc) think we should do? I need some advice. Also, Dr. S said that for next month, if we're unsuccessful this month, we'll either go back to Clomid and some type of injectable or do the Anastrazole in combination with something else. I don't remember exactly what she said though because once she said "injectable" I pretty much heard nothing but horror film music the remainder of the visit.'' Ugh. Solo pronto! I guess....
In other news, Rik has already finished a new post for all you gals (& Doc) but I had to post this before I posted his so that I don't feel like such a slacker. Also, all grammatical errors can be chalked up to the fact that THIS little lady won't stop pawing my arm and dropping her ball on my lap. How can I resist this face?
Tess is a jealous creature.